On stories – and on being human


Rumi's attributed photo

Image of Rumi,  via Zemanta, from Wikipedia

For the last three days, I have written about soldiers and stories – and surely – soldiers come by stories through the everyday living of their lives just like we all do.  We heard about my grandfathers, my uncle and my Dad – then we heard about my dear M. and his time with the Turkish military and then a bit about my students who are either current soldiers or veterans.  All of these soliders have taught me more than a thing or two about storytelling.  Hacivad Bey is nodding his head to this, and I am wondering what Sufis, those seekers of love, think about warfare and soldiers…and I have no answer to the question, but I do see that Rumi weighs in on the impact of being human – and that many writers have linked these comments to writing.  So, to continue the theme of stories this week here on slowly-by-slowly, I want to share a bit of Rumi’s writing that brings some explanation to the idea I had for blogging on a daily – or almost daily – basis.

While I started the blog as a way to enforce daily writing (and re-writing) of my memoir on my road trip through cross-cultural relationship replete with the Karagöz shadow puppets, it has also become a way to reflect upon and learn from the everyday back and forth of my life in a Turkish-American relationship.  When I came across this bit of Rumi’s writing, well, it all made sense.    I hope you will enjoy it.

“This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all
even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture.

Still treat each guest honourably,
he may be clearing you out
for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.”

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Note:  This blog documents the ongoing road trip through the cross-cultural marriage of one American woman married to one Turkish man.

Part of acculturating to her cross-cultural marriage included getting in touch with the metaphorical Karagöz shadow puppets that took residence in the back seat of her head.

Depending on the situation these puppets take on the roles of the yea-sayer, the naysayer, the devil, the angel, the manners expert, the feminist, the religious person and many more.

Karagöz Oyunları , or the particularly Turkish art form of shadow puppetry, is famous for heightening stereotypes and truths about the nature of people, places and things in the way that only puppets can. Emanating from the city of Bursa, the first capital of the Ottoman Empire circa 1326, Karagöz puppets have delighted children and adults alike for centuries. Said to be a tribute to Karagöz and Hacivad, two spirited men that loved to co-recite stories to their co-workers while taking breaks from the construction of Bursa’s stunning Ulu Cami (Ulu Mosque, see below, or), the puppets are the living memory of those men who were executed for slowing the process of the mosque’s construction.

What better country to use as the foil for a discussion on cross-cultural relationships than Turkey. As Turkey has taken the world stage in recent years, metaphors divining from its co-location in geographic east and west, Europe and Asia are abundant. Primed to be a model for future nations that want to balance democracy and Islam, it is the perfect setting for one couples own road trips through Turkey – road trips whose subtext is their quest for the marriage model that fits them – their own merger of east and west.

In addition to being the American half of a Turkish-American cross-cultural marriage prone to road tripping through Turkey, the author is a professor in the United States, where she teaches research methods, statistics, and policy analysis courses. For more information about Liz Cameron, and excerpts of her personal writing, see http://elizcameron.wordpress.com/

Please note that Liz Cameron is a nom-de-plume (pseudonym) – but all of the above is true!

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Puppet laryngitis: On (untold) stories, (student) soldiers and writing: Part III


Elibah Franklin, a supply specialist, from Beersheba, Israel, attached to Brigade Support Battalion, 3rd BCT, 82nd Airborne Division, listens to prayers and storytelling on the Jewish Sabbath (not my student - but could be!) Image from Wikimedia Commons

So, as I mentioned yesterday, the puppets have laryngitis this week, so I am doing all the talking – although there is quite a bit of pantomiming going on! After they basically tricked  me into posting about the role of fairy tales in my current telling of stories, they moved on to getting me to write about soldiers and stories – and two days ago – I wrote a post about the soldiers in my family and how their spoken and unspoken stories influenced me.   Yesterday, I wrote about M.’s time in the Turkish military vis-a-vis storytelling. You can read about that here.

Of course, there is a long history of soldiers and storytelling – take just about any ancient yarn and you will find some soldier returning from some epic battle or another.  As I got to thinking about stories, and how I love to tell them (both real and imagined stories, oops Karagöz kicked me in the shins, pantomiming “I am NOT not real!”), I have also come around to thinking about the students I have had lately – and how their stories have impacted me.  I teach in a program that primarily prepares students to do social work with people in the public sector – and with the advent and continuation of the Iraqi and Afghanistani theatres of war-occupation, veterans have been an increasing stream into our program…

As a professor in a social work program, when I meet and advise my students, their stories tumble out of them – happy ones, sad ones – all of the ones that lead them to choose to become social workers.  In addition to being my most hard-working, motivated and respectful students – my students with military histories are usually right out there with their stories.  I will tell you about the three that rise up most for me and whose faces and stories (mostly untold) haunt me a bit.

I will never forget meeting X., who had done 2 tours in Iraq as a mental health counselor with only half of his training done.  Although clearly somewhat tormented by his experience and also somewhat reactionary to authority, he pursued his degree doggedly.  Sitting with him through a study-tour of German social service systems, I learned a lot about his preparation – and lack thereof – to deal with the kinds of trauma he saw in the field.  His joie-de-vivre seemed to be heightened after what he had seen – but the ghosts seemed right behind the door too.  He didn’t say much, but what he did say, well, it has stuck with me, in mental images.  I know he will make a wonderful therapist – and has been with the Veteran’s Administration since his graduation.  X. put veterans on my map – and I started to weave veteran-related content into my courses.

And then there was D.  He was a hoot and a holler.  Still active in the reserve forces, he was often deployed during school vacations and worked hard to get things done way ahead of time.  Perhaps the funniest student I have ever had, D. was very scared of my course (research methods) and was not afraid to admit it.  Once he was kind enough to bestow upon me some sort of military-metaphored boss role, things were fine and filled with military talk “Yes, Ma’m,” he would say and “I’m tracking, boss,” when he was understanding a concept.  We established a great relationship and his team did an amazing project together.  D. also was not super forthcoming about his experiences in detail – but I could tell he had seen a lot after 2 deployments.  He spoke mostly about the camaraderie of his fellow soldiers and how this got them through the days and nights…and how it still does.  He used this imagery and these stories to motivate his research team in my class – to wonderful end.  And he also reached out to the young reservists and veterans in our program…including M., who needed a lot of support.  Let me tell you about M.

M. was a young woman of color who came into the program as my advisee.  I could tell from her semester project proposal that she had been sexually assaulted while in the military.  All of my students propose literature review projects on a certain topic – and you can always tell what is driving someone by the choices they make.  It’s a dead giveaway every time.  Over time, we developed a closer advisee-advisor relationship – and while she never told me the details – and I never asked – the tears flowed freely about what had happened and also about the racism and ethnocentrism she experienced in the service.  In the process of her training with us to become a therapist, she realized she needed to deal with the ghosts of what had happened to her…and slowed down to part time.  After working in a shelter for women survivors of intimate partner violence, she began to hit her stride, seeing the way forward in her career.  She is about to start her final internship as a therapist in a local Veteran’s Administration clinic where they are desperate for female therapists.  She often pops in to say hello, to check in – and it is wonderful to see her flourishing as she finds her way.  I can see other student-veterans who do not look as sparkly as M. does now – and I worry about them.  Thankfully, our University has started a major outreach campaign for this population of students.

These three students, and a range of others, have opened my eyes to stories untold, to being as sensitive as possible to respecting their service – even if I disagree with the conflicts they served in.  In some ways, seeing these student-veterans and their mostly untold stories has reminded me of the importance of telling my own untold stories – in this case about the realities of cross-cultural relationships – beyond the hysterical misunderstandings, misguided efforts and scintillating stereotypes – just the everyday, to demystify and share in a way that I don’t often see in the existing writing in this area.  I never imagine that the soldier-students in my life would inspire me so, but they have inspired me to keep going in my own little realm that maybe, just maybe, might make a difference for another Turkish-American couple – or at least some interesting reading for someone out there in the blogosphere.

As I look up from the laptop, all of the puppets are lined up in a row on the table, saluting my students….

http://slowly-by-slowly.com/2012/01/06/puppet-laryngitis-on-stories-turkish-soldiers-and-writing-part-ii/

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Puppet laryngitis: On stories, soldiers and writing: Part I


An image of a trench-written letter (Canadian, see this link for source)

Today, as I sat down to prepare my syllabus for the spring semester, the puppets took charge of my laptop – those puppets – they are the perpetrators of procrastination like none other.  I should mention that the puppets have laryngitis this week (to varying degrees) so they cannot talk much – but they can make themselves known nonetheless.  After they basically strong-armed me into posting about the role of childhood fairy-tales in the onset of the presence of the puppets in my life, the moved on to other topics –  but they were quite sly about it.

There was a lot of puppet-hopping and pointing and excited arm waving – and eventually they got me to navigate to the online place they really wanted me to go, namely, Archers of Okçular, the clever blog penned by an English expat living in southwestern Turkey.  Of course the clever joke is that Okçular is a word for archer – just had to mention it.  I adore this blog for many reasons – perhaps primary of which is the fact that I am always surprised by and interested in what Alan Fenn has to say on any given day.  It is never boring and always a fascinating window into the life of an Emiköy.

Today on this blog, there was a wonderful bit of writing in the form of a guest post from blogger Jack Scott (of Perking the Pansies fame, author of the new, best-selling-on-Amazon book Perking the Pansies: Jack and Liam Move to Turkey which you can purchase here). Today, Jack wasn’t talking about his (fascinating) book, rather, he was talking about his growing-up years as a military kid, including a stint in Malaya.  The images of his father, the professional soldier – and his Mum along for the ride – they were, well, enrapturing somehow.  I found myself lulled by the rhythm of the remembrance that Jack has penned.  It got me to thinking about the soldiers in my life, and how they have influenced me vis-a-vis the telling of stories.

So, when my eyes first hit the page that the puppets led me to, never being much of anything besides a peacenik, my eyebrows raised, much to the likely chagrin of my Grandpa the Scot, who fought in the trenches in WWI , my Uncle the Canadian, who fought in the trenches in WWII, my American grandfather who supported the WWII effort as an engineer, stateside at the Navy base near Portsmouth, Rhode Island, my American father who lived in post-war Germany for two years as a medic in a MASH unit during the Korean War – and of course my beloved M., who did his time in the Turkish military and escaped alive despite all odds at one point, with many hysterical stories to tell.  (Actually, he’s right with me on the peacenik front – but in any case – let me get back to the point of the day, stories, and soldiers).

Soldiers, you see, always seem to be the best storytellers.  They have seen a lot – even if not in combat – even if just waiting around in a German barracks for something to happen or driving along a Turkish road near Iskanderun heating up C-rations on the car manifold.  Perhaps it was growing up around all of these soldiers and all of their stories (and I count my adult life with M. as growing up time) that led me to appreciate the power of stories so much.  Now – some of these men never said a word about their experiences – but left trails of stories behind.  Some spoke sparingly of their soldiering days.  Some spoke with bravado about being near soldiers -and some spoke only when showing photos of the surrounds of their stories.  My M., though, he is a raconteur originale when it comes to stories about the Turkish army – but let me leave that generation for another day.

As a young woman, my father and mother read my Glaswegian Grandpa’s letters home from the trenches in France out loud.  My Grandpa’s writing was almost devoid of emotion, I remember thinking, about the horrors he saw there – his friends blown to bits, literally, next to him, and, well, all over him.  My parents gave me a first-hand view into the realities of war as it was waged in person-to-person form.  I have an enduring image of the “luxury” my Grandpa lucked into upon being promoted – his own fox hole in the wet, sticky December mud, and the tin cup in which he heated his tea with a tiny candle even on the most grim of nights.   Raised a teetotaler by his uncle and aunt after he and his brother were orphaned, Grandpa soon took to the power of a good stiff drink in the trenches – following his cuppa with a bit of the tough stuff, whisky, I suppose.  Many years later, he was known for pouring the stiffest of Manhattans to my father, who could rarely make it to the dinner table after politely accepting one of these potent libations.

Although I don’t remember meeting my Grandfather as I was but a wee babe, his stories, never told verbally, live on in writing.  You can read about them in this book, where the life of a Sandhurst-graduated gent during WWII is paralleled to that of my Grandpa, who actually saw the trenches.  On the other hand, my American Grandfather, although not a soldier, had a lot of stories to tell about preparations for an invasion of the eastern coast of the U.S.  As I recall, he was very proud of his service in the form of bridge building an the laying of scaffolds for submarines and the like…but it was my Grandmother’s stories of the era that ring more strongly in my memory – of Grandpa depositing the family in Conway, New Hampshire, far from the potential front, of nights under blackouts in Quincy, MA and of the ration books for food.  She wove sad stories of deprivation that merged seamlessly from the family’s significant challenges in the Great Depression of the 1930s right into the war years of the 1940s.

Now my Uncle, also a combat veteran, did not have much to say about war, much like his father.  I can’t imagine that my uncle didn’t love stories – he was, after all, a scholar of Shakespeare, Ben Johnson and the Cavalier Poets (see his book here).  However, they weren’t often about the war.  The only time I can remember him telling a story was when he explained the great, silvery-white scar across his chest – the result of a shrapnel wound.  My uncle had fought hard to fight as a military man, it turns out – had been turned down by the Americans and the British for some medical reason – but was taken up by the Canadians – much to his thrill and my grandparents’ horror.

But the stories I remember most are from my father, who entertained us with army stories as often as we would hear them.  He often acted out the characters he knew in 1950s Germany on the American bases – shrilling through his teeth the phrase “keep always movin'” when we were too slow (an imitation of his drill sergeant) and “you straight, you straight,” about the African American private who had lost his mind after too much time in solitary confinement for some sort of interracial incident that I can’t remember.  All he could say after his ordeal was that phrase…meaning “you’re ok.”  Dad would say this to us in an effort to make us laugh if we fell and skinned our knee, for example, telling us that we were just fine.  I never put all the bits of that story together until later.  He told of the soldiers he knew who rolled grenades down bars before ducking for cover, of trips through the mountains to get to Paris to see some art – and tying his underwear into chains for the tires in order to make it through a mountain pass in the Alps.  He told of peeling potatoes, local Germans he cared for through their iron lungs – and of the family he befriended in the neighborhood.  The stench of vomit was hanging in the air as he spoke about the transport ship he lived on during the crossing of the Atlantic Ocean – and the splattering of vomitous stuff seemed right with us as he spoke of climbing up ladders to get out onto the deck as people hurled all around him.  We would laugh until we would cry, but we were learning some important lessons about what governments do to their people, I suppose.

As I grew older, Dad would talk about how his dreams of becoming a doctor began to wane as he was working as a medic in Germany – where in addition to being Phlebotomist #1 for the community around the base and constantly getting stuck with Syphilis-infected needles – he also had the job of conducting autopsies on all suicides in the area. I think he had one too many a view of drunken soldiers chopped to bits by the trains they “accidentally” walked in front of and the like.  It all seemed so pointless.  Dad’s stories, when taken together, were really painting a picture of the bleak realities of post-war Germany in that era.  I began to see the power of this form of social history for understanding more about the world around me.

Each of these men seemed to have a unique relationship with their history of soldiering – and I took a slight bit of something from each of them with respect to the power of stories shared – and not shared.  Perhaps this explains my eventual foray into the study of history and anthropology as an undergraduate student – and then to the world of social work – where all work centers around the stories of people framed as “clients”  – and where those stories will go next, with support…

In any case, I raise my glass in honor of the soldiers in my own family, and for the ways that they introduced me to the telling of difficult and funny stories – but real stories, as opposed to the fairy stories of my childhood imagination….

(Tune in tomorrow for Part II of this post, on stories, soldiers and writing)

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